Hello World!

Its 2330, and I can't sleep. I've got so much on my mind...its a wonder I ever sleep at all. Since being sick over the past year and a half, so much has changed. So here is my list for now:
1) I'm 85lbs lighter and I still feel huge.
2) I'm afraid that I'm not getting the nutrition I need.
3) I don't ever want to be hospitalized again.
4) My marriage seems to be on the rocks.
5) My kids seem to be growing up too fast.
6) Families should really think before they speak, things done in anger cannot be undone. Wounds once made will eventually fade, the scar however will always be there.
Christmas is fast approaching and I am so tensed. My mum, who has never steered me wrong says, "Give it all to God!" I'm so wrapped up in everything some days that it hard for me to remember that I don't walk alone and never will! I suppose the truth of it all is that I'm afraid, hurting, and just plain unsure...Its a good thing God is forgiving and accepts that I am human, and with all my frailness He knows that I am trying. In the end, it is what counts!

Un-easy

You know that point when you feel you just need to vomit whats on your mind...I had that today. Here's what I typed up for my hubby:

I know the last few days you were here were particularly crazy. I do apologize for my part in the craziness. I do want you to understand how I feel...I love, trust, respect, and have faith in you. Sometimes I dont always feel like you reciprocate that, and it makes me clingy when you are about to go away. I dont like being told I am crazy, or that I am stupid for feeling that way. I can see you rolling your eyes already...no, I'm not sending you on a guilt trip...I know you are busy...I know you have a heavy load...I just dont want to wait to tell you what I feel or how I am doing till its too late and we are driving each other apart. I'm not a mind reader and neither are you so its important for us to keep an open dialogue always. I should have told you earlier, but the last night that we fought...I did see what you wrote to Dad on FB when I got online to find the store numbers to call for you. I dont think you meant for me to see it, but I did...Its not your fault, and what you say to Dad is between you and him. I do feel upset/ hurt about it, and I while I dont feel you meant it I still have to ask...are you really just hanging in till the kids are old enough to leave? are you really miserable? Yeah...I know these are difficult questions to ask...and while reading this is probably making you lean towards being miserable, that's not my intent.
I hope this e-mail doesn't make you angry and make you stop writing to me. I know this e-mail is not particularly making your day with all the things I am sharing. However, old man I love you I muss you so very much!

Glad I have this outlet...I dont think he needs to read that right now!

Obama to Cut Health Benefits for Active Duty, Retired Military

Obama to Cut Health Benefits for Active Duty, Retired Military

I cant believe they would be so bold to even propose something like this! I'm so irritated!

I'm Crazy and I know it!

So its been a week since I posted! It seems like every time I make a decision the poop hits the fan! I am proud of myself, I renovated the kids bathroom in a week. Not to mention, I took out a cabinet and put in a new outlet in the kitchen. (I converted and old light for that...but it was worth it!)

Yup! Thats what I did!

So I have discovered the wonders of the Kinect! I say yes to working out with it! Even if I do feel a little awkward...its gonna take some getting used to...not having a controller that is!

I didnt work out today, but had a little fun in the kitchen! I was taking out a cabinet to make space for a pot and pan rack...ended up pulling out a light with it! It worked out though, cause I took out the light and converted it to an outlet so that I could put up new lighting after the pot and pan racks go in! I must say I was very upset when I saw what the previous owners had done...it was a big mess back there!

In other news...I'm a little worried about having signed up for the 'It Works' home business...failure is not an option!

I just found this and thought it was interesting:

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Source:What Your Poop and Pee Mean

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Happy Birthday to me....

Look Ma!

So yesterday I didn't work out like I was going to, I was just *blah* in the morning! I have a heartache and I'm pretty certain Chris is going to have a coronary when finds out I started a IT works business...I feel bad because we didn't finish our conversation about it, at the same time it really isn't fair that I have to wait around for him to do everything for myself?
I've made a new friend over the past few days and I am sooo glad for it! Yaay! She is so sweet and her kids are just awesome... we all went to the barnyard, had lunch, and then met up again to see 'Escape from Planet Earth.' I hope I'm not wearing her down already!
The kids...well all I can say is that I love them! I just wish they had behaved well enough that I could have enjoyed the day without having to yell at them. I guess it aggravates me because the day before they were absolutely perfect! I mean I was just so pleased at how calm they were and how they had perfect manners...it was amazing! On the bright side...at least I know Chris and I are doing a great job...and I got a glimpse of it (even if it was brief!)